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This is what oldest son said to me this evening as I tucked him into bed.  I asked a question about something that had happened in his room today and he was telling me nothing happened.  I asked again (because he’s nine) and a smile broke out across his face.  I stared into his eyes to determine if he was telling me the truth.  That’s when he said, “I’m a kid, I can’t keep a straight face.”  Then I couldn’t keep a straight face.

Still, he falls asleep almost immediately.  He wakes up quickly and falls asleep quickly.  Unlike youngest son.  He takes a long time to wake up and to fall asleep.  In fact, he’s walking up and down the hallway as I type this t 10:50 pm.  I have decided he will have to go to bed at 7:30 so he can actually be asleep by 9:00.  I will do this tomorrow because he is driving me a little bit batty.

He keeps declaring things like “I’m not happy and you’re probably happy that I’m not happy.”  Yes, I am aware that I have my work cut out for me.  We’ve been working on the art of conversation.  We’re trying to get him to express himself using words instead of just hitting himself on the head when he’s frustrated.  He’s never been a big talker.  He will talk a lot when his brother is not around, but that doesn’t happen often.  Perhaps that’s why he keeps coming out from his bedroom each night.  He knows oldest son is fast asleep so he has me to himself.

Oh, but I am tired.  I do hope he falls asleep soon.  Why do kids always want to have the deep conversations at 10:30 at night?  Why can’t we have a philosophical conversation about happiness at 4:00 in the afternoon?

 

 

 

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Over the summer I spent time thinking about the simple joys.  A friend asked about our bathrobes.  The boys each have their own-younger son’s robe is black with grey skulls…very him.  Hubby and I gave robes to each other as presents early on in our relationship.  Oldest son has a red and black robe.  They are all soft and cuddly.  And they all keep a person from being naked.  A robe’s purpose is simple.  I had never given thought to the idea of all the comforts a robe brings to a person.  Like I said, keeps you from being naked after a shower.  But layered over pajamas and it makes you warm and cuddly when you need it.  When you are sick, lying around all day in your robe is about the best thing you can do.  Out of work?  Walk around with your robe over your clothes, just makes you feel better.  It’s a great part of your wardrobe that you may have taken for granted.  This friend didn’t have a robe.  He does now.  After we gave it to him (early birthday present), he wore it all weekend.  He gets the simple joys of a robe.

I have friends and coworkers that have summer homes.  Many times they share stories about the fun times they have at these places.  Other times though, they simply talk about all of the work involved in maintaining the summer houses.  Now I am not fortunate enough to own a summer home.  I hope if I ever get to that point, I will remember what I just wrote…fortunate enough to own a summer home.  If I feel like I wouldn’t be able to enjoy the upkeep, I’ll remember just to rent a summer house.  In the meantime, hubby and I have taken to calling our screened-in gazebo the “summer home”.  Very little upkeep involved here.  Put it up in the spring, take it down in the fall.  Any moments spent in our backyard at the “summer home” are wonderful.  The boys use it a fort.  Simple-poles, screen, and some plastic yard chairs but the immediate feel of a summer home.  It captures the essence of a summer place which is simply a different place than normal.

I accomplished a “Trading Spaces” type remodel to youngest son’s bedroom.  He walked in when I was almost done and he had such joy on his face.  The part I enjoyed was adding the simple details.  A picture from camp tape to the side of his bookshelves so he can see it each morning.  A sheep with wool that his Nana gave out in his class last year taped above the picture.  These are some of the things that are clearly important to this seven-year-old since he’s kept track of them for longer than a week.  I tried to see the room from his point of view.  He still liked how it is painted (the shark from Jaws on one wall, hammerheads, giant squid, jellyfish, octopus on the other walls).  He just wanted it to feel like he had more space to play.  We got him a futon and he loves it.  Rearranged the dresser, desk, and shelves and he feels like he has a brand new room.  I’m doing the same for oldest son.  The simple catch is they have to keep it clean as this is the last time I’ll do an overhaul like this (at least till they are teenagers-which isn’t that far away).  So the simple task for me is to teach maintenance.  I get to be the mean mommy and help them remember to tidy as they go.

We finally got a game system.  One simple joy of an X-Box is bowling.  We laughed and laughed and got lots of strikes and gutters.  Younger son is really good at boxing and this makes me glad it is a video game and only the avatar got hurt!  Still, after playing with X-Box for an hour, the boys asked to play a game of Scrabble.  I’m glad I have an old board that has wood tiles.  I heard the wood tiles have gone the way of the dodo.

Finally, a simple joy I keep summoning up to my mind’s eye is hubby teaching the boys how to skip stones.  Does summer and life get any better than that?  I don’t think so.

Enjoy the simple joys.

 

 

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Wonderful vacation with my family.  Fossils, food, fun, freedom from reality.

Home to an angry cat.  El Tigre was furious with us.  The other two cats, older, wiser, were fine with the house being free of loud, fast, young boys playing superheroes.

Then, to make nice, El Tigre killed a rabbit and presented it at the front door.  Bigger than the moles he usually gives to us.  Ewwwww.  I was happily at work when he presented this gift.

Root canal this morning.  I love going to the dentist.  I truly do enjoy it.  It is a time when I know no one can reach me.  I’m totally free to relax and be away from the world.  I enjoy root canals.  But today’s work was not stellar.  It involved three roots (molar) and to sum up, burning medicine ran down my throat and there was vomit involved when they tried to get an x-ray in the middle of the procedure.  That was a first for me.  But we finished it in 95 minutes.  In two weeks I go back for round two on this tooth.  Hopefully it won’t take as long and there will be no vomit.

Trying to get the boys back on the school schedule.  Slow going.  But we’ll get there.

And now it is bedtime for me.  After another pain pill.  Ow, my mouth hurts.

And I love House reruns.

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We had quite the lovely adventure searching for fossils this weekend.  Boys are watching Destination Truth as I document our findings.  They are in a very questful mood!

 

 

 

Above:  Not sure what this is a fossil of but it reminds me (and hubby) of those candy buttons that came on a strip of paper and were all different colors.

A rather nice example of a trilobite.  Oldest son found this on our second day.

In the photo above I think it may be a coral fossil.  It’s cute as a button in the center of the photo.  The photo below has a nice example of a brachiopod toward the right.  I believe below that in the stone, toward the center, may be part of a crinoid fossil.

 

 

Younger son found this partial trilobite (above, upper right of stone).  The depth of it is neat, compared to the depth of older son’s find.

I believe the fossil above (toward the upper center of the stone) and below (upper right of stone) are bryozoans.  They are fan-like and, in my opinion, very delicate looking.  Very gentle.  In the bottom photo, there also seems to be a fossil of a brchiopod.  Look to the left of the bryozoan.  It looks like a little seashell.

 

It was exciting for me as I always wished I could be a paleontologist when I was younger.  I did not force this interest in either of my sons, but when they discovered dinosaurs and fossils, I certainly supported it.  They both had fun in the dust this weekend, looking at stones from pre-history.  Both handled the spiders really well too.  Hubby did too.  One photo that will have to wait to be posted till next year since I didn’t take one with my camera is the one in my mind’s eye.  As I walked through some of the trails today, I noticed the amazing amount of quiet.  I also noticed the beautiful layer of ferns growing in this wooded area.  It transported me back.  You could feel the sense of history, the millions of years of existence, ever-changing with the times.  Another moment of my own destination truth.

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We drove to PA today to go fossil hunting again.  The air conditioner in the rocketsled died on Thursday so the boys got to experience the same type of trip I had when I was a little girl.  A hot, stuffy car where the windows seem to do nothing.  It was much nicer to be in the front seat.  I now understand why my folks always called out to us in the backseat, “It’s not that bad”.  Ah, being the parent.  You get the benefit of sitting in the front seat but you also have to listen to the kids arguing in the back, deal with the traffic, maps, and tolls.

The boys were really well-behaved on the trip.  It’s not a long trip, maybe two hours with the leisurely pace we decided to take.  We’re in the hotel now and the first thing the boys did was ask if the television had Cartoon Network.  Hubby had suggested we go to the park today to scout out the location, but he’s sleeping on the bed.  I think we’ll be lucky to make it over to the Cracker Barrel for dinner.

The nicest thing of all is that we are all relaxing.  There is no schedule.  I’m not even going to make one, other than to make sure we get downstairs for the breakfast by 8am tomorrow.  We can always come back upstairs to the room after we eat and finish getting ready for our adventure.  I packed nice and light.  A lot of the bags were actually filled with food and drinks.  The room has a mini-fridge and microwave.  Mini-fridge is now filled.  When the boys finally looked in it, they initially thought it came magically filled with everything they love.  Then they put it together that I must have filled it.

Oldest son is thrilled that the accent wall in the hotel room is orange.

Youngest son is thrilled that he and I went to the room first and he got to claim which side of the bed he wanted.

All I hope is that we find some fossils tomorrow.  And that I stop sneezing.  Terrible day for an allergy attack.

 

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Did you ever have something you’ve been doing for a while, not your job, but something you enjoy doing, when suddenly you realize you aren’t enjoying yourself?  You are then faced with a decision.  Do you keep doing it or do you own up to the fact that the passion is gone?

You could look at some of the Olympic athletes.  Sometimes I’m watching them and their faces show that their hearts aren’t in it.  Why do they still compete if they aren’t enjoying it?  All the work and dedication it requires and yet it seems like they are only sort of there.

There have been many things over the years of my life that my heart has stopped beating for with any real power.  A lot of the “stuff” that went with the former hobby still sits in my house because I “might do it again”.  Nah, I won’t.  But man, it’s hard to let go of the stuff.  That stuff contributes to the junk sitting in random places in my home.  Why is it so hard to let go?

I’ll be pondering this concept.  I need to make some choices about hobbies that may require some thrown towels.  Like Phelps throwing in his Olympic towel.  And in his case, I mean that literally.

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than yesterday.  My personal pep talk kicked my derriere.   I am down to two piles in our bedroom.  I filled a bag for the donation bin, two bags of trash, a bag of recycling, and the boys and I filled five bags with weeds.  Hubby mowed the lawn.  We’re kicking ass and taking names.  Well, we mow the lawn every week, but I’m counting everything.

Stuff for VBS is practically together, which is good since it starts tomorrow.  The boys and I had a lot of fun together today.  They helped me at church getting things set up (after a bunch of folks moved the tables into place for us-thank you!).  We bagged the weeds we pulled yesterday.  Younger son had set up his own chore chart last night and completed five of them.  We had a fun dinner, watched Crashbox, Ninjago, and Destination Truth.  Bedtime went well.  Older son couldn’t keep his eyes open while tucking him in to bed.  Younger son needed one more glass of chocolate mile meaning I had to turn off Night of the Comet.  So I watched the tuned into the Olympics.

Yes, my jaw dropped when McKayla Maroney landed on her butt.  And then I wept when Kirani James asked for Oscar Pistorius’s name tag.  That was a beautiful moment to watch.  Tomorrow night I’ll watch the uneven bars if they air after I am home from VBS.

And so my perspective realigned again.  No need to let the piles bother me too much.  They’ll go away if I make them.

By the way, did you see that Ragu commercial where the kid walks into his parents’ bedroom at the wrong time?  Yes, it is making me think about Ragu but certainly not about eating it.  Good grief.

And how uncomfortable are the outfits the women gymnasts have to wear?  To flip and twist and run in those outfits?  Then when they finish, they have to find a spot without a camera so they can “adjust” the backside.  Again, good grief.

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Queen of Crap

I am a horrible person.  I am constantly in a pissy mood because of the packrat nature of my husband and sons yet the massive piles I contribute to the house are equal.  I am so tired of having a house that makes me feel ill.  I’ll make some steps toward simplicity and then I just slide right back into old habits. Or I’ll tell myself I’m too tired to deal with them.  Inevitably when I do deal with them, everything in the pile is obsolete.  Why then do I keep them?

The only place I’ve gotten a pattern with is the attic.  About every six months I go up there and pull out boxes and bags to donate or discard depending on what is in them.  Why can’t I do the same with the piles?  Except not every six months…more like every week.  In some ways I’m very organized, but in others I am a total mess.  It makes me feel very sad.  It makes me not want to look at this amazing home we have.  I walk through it with blinders on because I don’t want to see it.

I want to enjoy my house.  I want to not be embarrassed when someone pops in to say hello.  I don’t want to be the Queen of Crap.

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I admit it.  I watch the gymnastics to see if anyone falls off the balance beam or trips during the floor exercises.  Same reason I watch figure skating.  I enjoy watching the Olympics, but for the first few days the only events I managed to catch were cycling.  I know there were other things happening, but the time I had free, it was cycling.  Not my favorite, and really, spectators, stay off the road they are riding on or they will run you over.

Tonight on the womens’ gymnastics overall finals, or whatever the name of it was, Gabby Douglas was a hoot to watch.  Her floor exercise was beautiful and you could see the joy she felt during it.  Aly Raisman didn’t show the greatest sportsmanship in wondering why they couldn’t just give two bronze medals (because that’s not how the Olympics, or life, works.)  It seems she also let the psychological game take over with the upset of Jordyn Wieber.  If you qualified, you qualified.  Let the other stuff go and focus on the event in front of you.  Coaches must go over that with them.

But Gabby…what a sweet smile.  Her mom was BEAMING!  Gabby was simply taking in the moments, the crowds, the sounds at the medal ceremony.  It looked like she was trying to take a million mental pictures of it.  I hope to see her on the Wheaties box really soon.

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Now that I want to have more adventures with my sons, I know I need to get into shape.  Any kind of shape is better than the shape I am in at the moment.  I have been using the Gazelle pretty regularly, but I know I need to do multiple forms of exercise to really make a difference because I have a loooonnnnggggg way to go.  I borrowed a friend’s Insanity workout.  It simply proved that I am truly insane.

I started at the beginning, since that’s the best place to start.  As the guy is showing the four basic moves, I did them along with him.  I was sweating just by the end of that part.  Then we moved on to the warm up.  Good golly, how out of shape am I?  I could do just the warm up for the next month or two and still be winded by the end of it.

Then I started the fitness test.  You would have been on the floor laughing.  You would have gotten a work out just from laughing at how poorly I did on the fitness test.  No, not actually the fitness test-the first four moves of the fitness test.  I then remembered the warning…stop if you need to rest.  Yep.  I stopped.

But keeping my desire for adventure in mind, after stretching a bit and drinking some water, I went downstairs and did 15 minutes on the Gazelle as a cool down.  Yes.  I needed a cool down from the warm up.  But…

I did try.  And tomorrow it will be a wee bit easier.  I probably won’t notice that it’s easier, but in theory, it will be easier.

The Insanity workout is truly insanity.  And if my neighbors could see me, you’re welcome for the laughter.

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