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Last week we woke the boys up at 1 in the morning on October 29th and told them to get in the rocket sled. We told them we were going a grand adventure. They first guessed AMNH but quickly realized we were traveling the wrong way. So they guessed Philly Museum of Natural History, Museum of Art, Franklin Institute, Camden Aquarium, and the response was no, no, nope, no…. Then they see the sign for Baltimore. Younger son calls out, “Oh, we’re going to Poe’s grave for Halloween!” No, but good idea for next year.

As we drove past Baltimore and they realized they were passing the furthest most southern point yet traveled in their lives, they asked for a clue. We said “W”. Older son then quietly asked, ” Are we going to Walt Disney World? ”

Yes.

Total disbelief.

Before we began reading, Older Son recalled last year when I came into his fifth grade classroom and read “The Raven”.  This is happily a good memory for him though tonight I apologized to him.  It was not the best selection because in my skewed world of what is normal family reading, I made a huge mistake in thinking all fifth graders enjoyed Poe…or even knew who he was.  I recovered at the end by making the connection to the Baltimore Ravens and then the classmates at least were polite in pretending to care.  I realized only tonight how much damage I potentially did to my son’s tender reputation in reading a little Poe in school.

But tonight, as I gently opened the care-worn copy of Poe, we delved this year into “The Black Cat”.  I felt this fitting considering we now have six felines living with us, yet none of them completely black so no nightmares should ensue.  Of course, the nine year old manages a nightmare every night…about two minutes after being tucked in.  I always marvel at how quickly he manages to succumb to REM sleep!

After the story, we chose a poem, “Fairy Land”, and we all quite enjoyed it.  We then read “Hymn” and I read it a second time and the boys caught the references better on that reading.  Then it was time for bed and I happened upon a poem that I had never read before while the boys prepared for slumber.

The title is simply “The Sleeper”.  One of the most haunting descriptions of a coffin is contained in this poem.  I wept while reading it.  I couldn’t have stopped myself if I had tried, but truthfully, I didn’t realize I was weeping till I tasted the tears.

“…The bodiless airs, a wizard rout,
Flit through thy chamber in and out
And wave the curtain canopy
So fitfully-so fearfully-
Above the closed and fringéd lid
‘Neath which thy slumb’ring soul lies hid,…”

And later,

“Forever with unopened eye,
While the pale sheeted ghosts go by!”

So sad, so haunting, so full of mourning.  What a tortured soul he must have been.  I am still sad that the Poe Toaster stopped the tradition.  I will have to enlighten the boys to that bit of history.  Younger Son had forgotten that they have visited Poe’s grave, so I suppose on the next trip to Baltimore we should visit it again.

Perhaps tomorrow night will be the annual reading of “The Raven”.  I shall read that poem till I can read nevermore!

 

 

Someone to Sit With

“Find someone to sit with you.  You’re not strong enough to do it on your own.  No one is.  Find someone to sit with you.” That’s Wallander’s dad’s advice to him.  His father is facing his death and he tells his son to look at the world.  He tells him to find someone to sit with.

Doesn’t matter who, in the end, it’s about having someone to sit with you.  You may start out thinking one person is the one who will sit with you, but you really can’t know what life has in store for you.  If for the person you planned on changes, find another.  Spouse, friend, lover, sister, brother, cousin, child.  Someone.  For me, it’s Hubby.  At times, it’s my boys.  But mostly, my Hubby.

As Pooh always says, it’s friendlier with two.  Say hello to someone today.  Sit with someone today and look at the world.  Don’t miss it.  It’s a beautiful thing.

Yes, it was like Sixteen Candles but real.  Except I was the mom.  When the hell did that happen?  I prayed he would have fun and not be easily classified as Geek/Farmer Ted or John Cusack’s character.  Although, in two years when Younger Son can attend too, they could be John Cusack and Darren Harris.  Bryce and Cliff, having a blast.  But I digress.

I also didn’t want him to be Jake.  He’s too bloody young and this was the first dance!  And no, he is not allowed to be Long Duk Dong.

But truly, happy memories flooded my mind.  I doubt the soundtrack was the same, but I am sure the dance beat hasn’t changed too much.

As we were driving home, Older Son commented that he and his friends laughed and joked during the slow dances.  I started to say that he shouldn’t laugh or make fun of it, but realize that the kids dancing might be nervous, and he cut me off mid-sermon.  Laughing, he said, “Mom, you seem to forget one important thing.  I’m 11.  I’m supposed to make fun of it.”

Oh, how I love this kid.

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Surgery Day!

I have promised not to change my nose on the outside.  (Truly, that was never the plan).  I do hope this helps my left maxillary sinus and I won’t have to worry about which side for pictures anymore.

I will confess that I am somewhat concerned because the doc will be entering for the surgery the same way one would enter to do a lobotomy.  Now, I know, totally different surgery, but damn, it won’t leave my head.

I am officially fasting at this point, so it is time to go to sleep.

And in case you hadn’t heard, two more kittens,Rose and Charlie,  joined our family.   They are getting braver and should try the stairs to the great unknown any day now!

Prayers are welcome for the surgery.  Should I post a picture of my post-surgery face?  Does anyone really like looking at bruised, swollen faces?  I don’t really do selfies, but I suppose people may feel better seeing something like that to be able to say, “Glad that’s not me!”

 

Word Associations

Nebulizer_mucus
Nebulizer_snot
Nebulizer_pain in the left nostril
Pain in the left nostril_when the doc put the camera in for a look see
Vertigo_Hubby and Boss driving me to and from work
Vertigo_not sleeping well
Vertigo_possibly resolved by amount of fluid coming out of my head due to the
Nebulizer_mucos
Nebulizer_surgery
Surgery_no more mucus trapped in the left maxillary sinus
Surgery_no more nebulizer
Surgery_no more vertigo
Surgery_no more deviated septum
Nose

My boys current look reminds me of only one other set of brothers.

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The Brothers Gibb

barry and andy gibb

My Lunch with Myself

I’m not good at taking an actual lunch break at work.  Today I really stopped and ate food (a lovely stuffed shell left over from Sunday night’s dinner).  I am playing music and decided to take a few minutes for me, and in turn, you Gentle Reader.

My boys are sick.  I hate that.  Older son got sick on Saturday.  His fever spiked as high as 105 at one point but today it is hovering around 100, so he’s almost all better.  He also has his energy and appetite back-both good signs.  Younger son came down with it yesterday and is still in the thick of it.  His temperature this morning was 103.  He is feeling very achy and I really wish I could be home with both of them.  They caught it from Hubby (he caught it from a patient) so I’m the only one it hasn’t gotten yet.

Hubby truly understands that as much as I want to be at home, I really can’t call out from work at the moment.  We’re in training mode and there isn’t anyone else here to step in and cover.  My boys understand too and besides, Dad doesn’t make them rest in their rooms like I do.  I’m sure the three of them are in the living room watching some cartoon or another.  Knowing I couldn’t stay home today either, Hubby ran around last night taking care of stuff that he knew he wouldn’t be able to take care of today.  And he surprised me by putting out the garbage.  I had the biggest smile when I walked out of my house this morning and discovered he had already put the trash to the curb.

When Hubby did get home last night, we watched Scary Movie 2 (again) because it makes us laugh every freakin’ time.  (I better use my strong hand…)

The boys have been helping each other with taking care of the pets, depending on who is feeling better.  They are so cute and cuddly when mildly delirious from fever!

Ah, lunch with myself.  Time’s almost up.  Gonna go call my three stooges and see how they are.

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Rex is quite smart. When he wants to go out, he brings you a shoe. If you don’t respond quickly enough for him, he brings you the match. Subtle, no? He brings you what you need to help he take care of his need.

He teaches me compassion everyday when I think how fortunate we are to be his family.

He teaches me to be playful when he brings me the knotted socks for a game of tug-of-war.

He reminds me that a treat isn’t a bad thing if you deserve it.

He reminds me that beauty comes from within even when there are imperfections on the outside. When I scratch his neck scar for him, he looks at you with an expression that seems to say thank you for understanding.

He reminds me to lean on others when there is something (just about anything) that scares him and he needs comfort.

He reminds me that having others depend on you gives you strength and purpose each day.

He shares unconditional love everyday and happily receives it in return.