ohbloodyhell8

You remember that expression?  Keeps coming back like a bad penny?  Whatever the expression, I was on a board until this past October.  Here it is December and board members are still regularly contacting me.  I no longer have the information.  I have nothing to offer anymore, I am burned out beyond believe to the point of feeling bitter toward something I used to really love.  I know over time I will enjoy it again, but please stop asking me if I am coming to the next meeting.  If I were to go to the next meeting, wouldn’t that somewhat defeat the point of going off the board?  If I weren’t burnt out, perhaps I would want to go, but the other problem is that I work that weekend which is why I wasn’t at the last January meeting.

I feel like I am being mean in trying to cut myself away but they keep writing and calling.  I feel like I have been backed into a corner.  The position is in my (recent) past, in my present I do not want it right now, and in my future I hope to be able to embrace it again.  I also hope my sons continue to embrace it, but at the moment I am so frustrated I don’t want them to see that.  Part of the reason I announced I would not have a second term over a year before the first term was over.

Let me explain, no it will take too long, let me sum up.  Family can be a tricky thing.