ohbloodyhell8

I am enjoying my current circumstances. My work situation is lighter, fewer part time jobs. I get more time with my family. More time to chill. Even when I’m at work, it isn’t filled with stress. It’s quite manageable. In fact, I’m even off my blood pressure medication.

I could be doing tons of crazy stuff with this new time, and I have done stuff (marching band, build ventriloquist dummies). But my current favorite, in this dead of winter, is to do nothing. And not feel guilty while doing nothing. Nor do I think about “all the stuff I should be doing”. It feels great.

I have had time to think about the past few years, process the many changes, events. And have started thinking about the stuff I want to do in my life. Older and Younger Sons are teenagers. As I have always done, I am loving the stage they are in, but I am also very aware that time is fleeting. What do I do when they are off to college?

Now it’s not like it’s tomorrow…but I’m exploring what I still like, what I no longer like and can let go of, and what I still want to do, learn, try.

It’s pretty neato.