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Each late afternoon into early evening I dream on my drive home that my home will be tidy and homework will be complete and dinner will be waiting on the table.  This never happens.  That’s okay.  Today was wonderful.  I came home to an untidy home, homework not complete, and dinner not yet chosen.  I was faced by a blanket hanging down from the top of the stairs.  I ducked under the blanket and went up the stairs.  I noticed that in addition to the hanging blanket there were no pillows on the couch.  Or on the chaise.  Or on the chair.

I walked crookedly down the hallway as I discovered where all the pillows had been moved to by two young boys.  The first impulse was to be angry, frustrated, even more tired than I already was.  This makes more to tidy up and I am already more behind than usual.  Then my sons asked me a question.  Everything else melted away.

“Mom, what do you think of our sculptures?”

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(Did not mean to frame one of the pics in such a way that made my sons look like the girls from The Shining…)

I am hooked on two shows that have lovely literary connections.  The Following and Grimm.  The other show I’m addicted to offers me hits for my addiction to the 1980s-Psych.

I’ve been reading up on the Brothers Grimm in anticipation of my class this fall.  I am retiring Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption for a while (sorry, Uncle Stevie) and changing to Nursery and Household Tales by the Grimms.  I am having a blast exploring how much the stories have influenced the world, sometimes in not good ways.  I mean, really not good ways.  I plan on using some of the “classics” that most of the students should remember, but also will select a good number of the lesser known ones that the boys and I have been discovering over the past year.  Two other books offering critical analysis will round out the work.  As I keep learning more, I keep coming up with new questions and discovering how much I have missed in the television series Grimm by not knowing this stuff beforehand.  I love learning!

The Following is truly gory but Kevin Bacon evens that out for me.  And Psych, well, Psych is comedic brilliance.  I cannot wait for this week’s episode.  It’s based on Clue.  Enough said.

The boys decided to have a sleepover.  Right at the last possible moment before bedtime.  They wanted to discuss what they will do with the leprechaun they hope to catch with their trap.  So as I sit here annoyed by the friend of the neighbor playing the music really loudly in his car, I am also listening to the attempts of two boys trying to quietly talk without Mom hearing the conversation.  They are really not good at speaking quietly.  They start with whispers and then within a couple of minutes they’re using full voices.

But before beginning the joy of eavesdropping on the secret conversations of young brothers, I went into the room to tuck them into bed.  They were wearing their nightcaps.  I told them one day older son would be 30 and younger son would be 28 and they’d call each other.  After saying hello, bro, one will ask the other if he remembers the sleepovers.  If he remembers the nightcaps.  They’ll have a good laugh and recall so many wonderful nights spent having adventures in the bed made by their great-grandfather as they drifted off to sleep.

I had to get the camera.  I took pictures of my sweet sons wearing their nightcaps.  Being the hams that they are, they created several great photo memories.  They even made the classic Stacky face.

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What to write…

I want to write this evening, yet I don’t know what to write about.  I’ve made lots of errors on social media today so I may have unintentionally given myself writer’s block.  My mind has been swirling the past two weeks or so.  First, I cannot believe we are already in March.  Where is time going?  I seem to miss it every day.

This evening I enjoyed time and threw the concept of bedtime out the window.  The boys and I spent some good, fun time together.  Older son and I read some of the Barnum Brown biography for his school project.  Younger son and I reviewed for his spelling test and discussed the book he is writing.  Younger son is holding a St. Patrick’s Day craft stand in the waiting room this week and he shared how sales are going.  Both boys practiced their baseball skills again this afternoon.  They are so pumped for Little League this year.  Don’t know what changed, but I’m loving it.

I have this incredible urge to watch Angels & Demons.  Ridiculous particularly since I’m not Catholic.

Not sleeping well lately.  Explains a lot.  Like the many errors I’ve made today in my humble writings.

Maybe I’ll watch Taken.  Always a fine choice.  Or Music and Lyrics.  Quite possibly the best fake music videos ever made.  Totally brings me back to the ’80s.

Did anyone else take a long time to realize that Grant Heslov was one of the producers of Argo?  Props to him.  I love him in True Lies and Congo.  I’m a happy couch potato watching Grimm, Psych, and  The Following.  But when the heck is Episodes coming back?

Had fun during a meeting today at work comparing punctuation to spices.

Okay, I’m going to end this most random post and smartly choose to go to sleep.  I’m going to be a wild woman and not even proofread the post.  Sorry for any errors.

Younger son has passed the one year mark for the tics.  We’ve been using orthomolecular therapy for the Tourette Syndrome and it seems to be having a very positive effect.  There are still facial tics and, as I found out at parent-teacher conferences this evening, the arm tics are still present.   Still the tics have been reduced greatly.  He feels a lot better and his arms don’t hurt as much because of the reduction in quantity and severity of the tics, so yea!

Younger son had his first session with the cognitive behavioral psychologist today.  He really connected with the doctor.  The session went very well and the doctor helped him with deep breathing exercises and encouraged him to keep using his pockets trick.  He has to go once a week for the next three weeks.  There will be much to coordinate at work tomorrow with my calendar!

Younger son really expressed himself so beautifully during the session.  It seems he has a lot of ideas and feelings about his older brother.  Things Hubby and I have not been privy to, but with that neutral third party, he feels comfortable opening the conversation.  I am impressed with how eloquently younger son expresses himself.  He is so wonderfully thoughtful and chooses his words with such care.  I am in awe of him.  He embraces each new doctor and office with an open mind.  He tries it and then we talk about it after to see how he really felt about it.  He doesn’t hold back-in his like or dislike.  And a tradition began after the appointment.  He chose Swedish Fish from the vending machine.  He asked if he gets those after each appointment.  Perhaps that’s why he wants to go again.  Oh, he is my beautiful boy.   246

Close your eyes
Have no fear
The monster’s gone
He’s on the run and your daddy’s here

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful boy
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful boy

Before you go to sleep
Say a little prayer
Every day in every way
It’s getting better and better

Out on the ocean sailing away
I can hardly wait
To see you come of age
But I guess we’ll both just have to be patient
‘Cause it’s a long way to go
A hard row to hoe
Yes it’s a long way to go
But in the meantime

Before you cross the street
Take my hand
Life is what happens to you
While you’re busy making other plans

Before you go to sleep
Say a little prayer
Every day in every way
It’s getting better and better

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful boy
Darling, darling, darling
Darling H

-John Lennon

Gerald Charles Dickens would be so proud of my sons.  Last night, at dinner, younger son began a rousing game of 20 Questions meets I-Spy.  As older son and I began asking questions about the object he spied with his little eye, he played the distractions beautifully.  He kept looking over at the bookcase or the frames on the wall above it rather than where the object was truly located on the top of the secretary desk.  He’s seven.  He’s good at this.

So we keep asking questions.  Older son, in a lovely British accent, asks, “Is it an unwanted creature?”

Laughter filled the dining room.

As we blend Dickens seamlessly into our every day dialogue, we also have begun the journey with the mp3 players.  Ironically, no Journey on it yet.  Queen, Peter Gabriel, John Lennon, Earth Wind & Fire, and-dare I write it-Justin Bieber are loaded on to it.  I need to try some ebooks too.  Just not sure which books to start with for them.

Speaking of books, I am reading a wonderful book at the moment, available through Amazon for your Kindle or through Barnes & Noble in my favorite version-real pages, titled The Worldly Affairs of Lord Gosham by Kurt M. Schiller.  The language is positively delightful.  It has a feel of the romantics and I am savoring the book for as long as I can.  A quote from the back cover:

“…a farcical world of secret societies, wild-eyed poets, and dastardly bassoonists (perhaps the most detestable of all musicians).”

Bassoonists are dastardly-who knew!  Read the book and get lost in the lives of the characters and the lyrical language.  I also wouldn’t mind going to the home of Lord Gosham-sounds divine (even the west wing)!

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I used to throw Oscar parties.  This evening I sit in my living room having seen exactly none of this year’s movies.  Older son is sick with a fever and fell into a deep sleep at 8pm.  Younger son got ready for bed and then begged for time on the computer.  He’s finally asleep after feeding fish, being tucked in, taking an extra trip to the bathroom, and listening to Beautiful Boy sung by me.

And it seems that I didn’t miss anything big by joining the show sporadically for the first hour.  I suppose I’ll end up watching the whole show, unless older son wakes up when his medicine wears off.  But it seems like a whole lot of hoopla over nothing as I get older.

The big excitement today was finding Thumpback for older son.  Then imagine our joy when we found the elusive Eyebrawl hidden behind some other products.  I used to work in retail and I know how people hide the popular stuff, so we searched the shelves and found him.  Sorry to the person who thought it was safely hidden, but really if it’s that important, buy it when you find it.  This was the fourth or fifth store we’ve been to.  Not all in one day, but over the past few days.  The boys were really excited and Eyebrawl and Thumpback are pretty cool.

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As far as Les Miz…I could one day play Madame Thenardier…I’ve got the voice and the bust.  Enough said.  It’s a goal.  I’ll get there one day.

Don’t Give Up

I hadn’t listened to Peter Gabriel’s So for a long time.  It was a pivotal album during my initial climb out of the darkness.  It was played regularly in the final months before I got treatment.  I have an incredibly vivid memory of my mother asking me to remember the song “Don’t Give Up” each day.  She asked this even before she knew exactly what was wrong, but she heard me playing the cd over and over and heard the song.  She was reaching out in whatever way she could at the time.  I was a shadow of myself by that point.

I don’t know what the song is really about.  I never looked it up and didn’t want to know.  Still don’t really want to know.  The lyrics spoke to me in the state I was in and made me feel like I wasn’t alone and not the only one dealing with something like I was.  I know now I am not the only who has dealt with this illness.  But then I was so deep in it I wasn’t thinking straight or even for myself.

Random lines that still wash over me with such powerful emotions…

I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

don’t give up
you’re not beaten yet

don’t give up
’cause somewhere there’s a place
where we belong

rest your head
you worry too much

This verse still makes me cry because for me it was the plan for “solving” the problem…
‘got to walk out of here
I can’t take anymore
going to stand on that bridge
keep my eyes down below
whatever may come
and whatever may go
that river’s flowing
that river’s flowing

But then the chorus would sing out again…

don’t give up
’cause I believe there’s a place
there’s a place where we belong

I didn’t find the place that I belonged for a long time after that time of my life passed to a new one.  Now blessedly I have three reasons that make “solving” a problem obsolete…Hubby, Older Son, and Younger Son.  They are why I needed to not give up.

Of course, I still “worry too much” as the one line says.  What can I say, that’s me.

We have resisted.  We still have albums, CDs, hell, we have 8-Tracks.  Still, today we have succumbed to the 21st century.  This evening my sons each got their own mp3 players.  For the price, I got a lot of features and won’t cry if (when) they accidentally destroy it.  I loaded The Rolling Stones “You Can’t Always Get What You Want” onto it as the debut song (good message to learn in that chorus…”but if you try sometimes, you might get what you need”).  Even as I type my sons are falling asleep to Queen.

The purpose of the mp3 players was to help the boys learn the music of their generation so that they would have more to talk about with their friends (at least that’s the reasoning they used when asking for the mp3 players).  Yet when I asked them for a list of songs they wanted downloaded to their mp3 players, these are the lists I was given.

Older son:  “We Will Rock You”, “We Are the Champions”, “Gangham Style” (no, not going on the mp3 player), Justin Bieber songs, One Direction songs, Queen, The Beetles (I explained how to spell it when referring to the band, remember he’s a science guy, but for accuracy that is how it was written on his list), any songs by Batoven (Beethoven), Bach, and Motzart (Mozart).

Younger son:  Michael Jackson, “We Will Rock You”, “We Are the Champions”, “Bohemian Rhapsody”, “Crazy Little Thing Called Love”, The Beatles, Beethoven, Bach, Mozart, Beautiful Boy (by John Lennon).   (He’s not necessarily a better speller than his older bro, but he dictated his list.)

I feel we have done a fine job of building their musical foundation.  As we explored the stacks of CDs, they also chose Earth, Wind, & Fire (particularly “that song from Night at the Museum“) and Brian Setzer Orchestra.  I also pulled Billy Joel, a 70s compilation CD, and Peter Gabriel’s So.  I’m smart enough to know to let Daddy pick the Sinatra that they need.  We’ll keep digging through the CDs and we’ll keep buying from Amazon (who graciously load it directly into the cloud for me).

So here we are joining the 21st century and they only ask for two or three artists that originated in this century.

As I played “Bohemian Rhapsody” for younger son, I felt such joy teaching him when to headbang, when to play air guitar versus air drums versus air piano.  We discussed cross-hand pieces for the piano.  I told him how the song was recorded without any synthesizers and the urban legend that surrounds how thin the tape got as they kept re-dubbing it to get the full chorus sound just from their four voices.  Ah, tradition in the 21st century is not so different from the traditions of yore.

I feel a certain peace knowing that my sons are drifting into sweet dreams listening to the beautiful vocals of Freddie, the amazing bass lines played by John, the extraordinary drum solos played by Roger, and the Red Special strummed by Brian.

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And imagine the joy in our home when my sons discover that Queen has been Lego-ed.                                                Lego_Rock_Band_Queen_Pose

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There were 82 spam comments, mostly from dumpster rental sites.  What’s up with that?  Is this a way for cyberspace to tell me my blog is trash?

If I were the paranoid type, I’d be worried.

Wink, wink, nudge, nudge.